4.3.16

excerpts from past journals regarding my mother

DISCLAIMER
THESE ENTRIES ARE ALL COPIED EXACTLY AS THEY ARE IN MY JOURNAL. I WAS A LIAR WHEN I WAS A CHILD, SO SOME OF MY STORIES MIGHT BE INCORRECT. I HAVE THE BEST MOTHER ON THE PLANET.
'04 I Love you mom you or the best

'04 I Fil like I love Dad more then Mommy. rile it fils like it is tro

'04 I WIL NOT LIE to Moroe and evere Day to Mom

Nov '04 to-day was the worst day of my life. I lide.

10/7/05 I just told mom frst grayd is so boring! dot you thingk so!

10/12/05 I LOVE MY MOM!

10/15/05 I love my famy!

'05 Mom looks like a qkween

3/6/06 today is the day be for mom's birthday! I got hre irings.

3/7/06 Today is moms B-day! We had cake and ice ceam. it was fun.

3/12/06 I love Dad Mom so so so so so so so so so so going on forevr much. I cant wat for the kids to be maryd and have kid's. How wundrful will that be! I am so exidid but be sum yares entel that hapins

5/10/06 I'm sitting next to mom on the plane! the vyoo is so cool and butiful. I cant wate.

11/6/06 Im thakefl for my mom

'06 I hate my family

2/25/07 I am almost 8! I'll be babtized. Im takeing my dress back. It's Mom's fav but my least fav

10/7/07 right now i am thingking abot when i am a mom and I'm reading this to my kid's. I love you who ever you are

10/28/07 Today Mom said i was the bigest inberisment in her life. then I couldent belive what i said: so she said you are going to be in your room entell we go to grandmas and then i said good 'cause i don't want to be around you. I acted like i was three.

'07 I love Mom! She is so so RAD!!!

'07 Mom, I love you so so so much!! Your the BEST!! Im sorry I not staying focased but than agin I'm sorry for not letting you sleep!

1/26/08 Dear Diarie, today is the day mom brought my baby sister home from the hospital!

11/19/08 age 9. I got sent to bed early because talking back to my mom. I said your sure nice mom. I was acting really sarcastic

3/5/09 Moms b-day is on saturday! Life is crazy! I think I'll get her either a purse, or jewelry or something! (idk) 2marrow we are going to go shopping

11/23/09 today we went to get christmas ornaments. I droped mine. Me and Mom tried to fix it with super glue, tacky glue, and hot glue. it worked (thankfully!)

1/10/10 Well mom has decided on a new tradition & every sunday we will wright about our week.

9/8/10 Moms gonna shave her head. I cant believe it.

11/1/10 Mom and dad just got back from ATL. they were gone forever it seemed. I'm so happy they are back!

'11 I have an awesome little Mom! Shes the best! always know that. I love my Mom.

12/3/13 I want to be a therapist or an English teacher but i mostly want to be a famous actress. or musician. so i can buy my parents a house

9/8/14 my Mom is my best friend.

9/14/14 today Mom & dad got back from one of their weekend getaways & it was kind of a bad time to go. Im stressed about school & other things & then i had a weekend where all i could do was babysit or cook or clean. i dont know how mom does it

1/3/15 me and mom went to see into the woods. i love my mom.

2/9/15 Mom told us to write things we've been praying for. Ive been praying for her and her kids.

3/3/15 me and moms relationship is the best, im so lucky to have the mother i have.

'15 me and mom started to practice driving, and shes a shotgun freakshow

6/22/15 my mom thinks i stay home because i dont want social interaction, but shes wrong. its just that no one wants to interact with me. her and dad are always asking me whats wrong and i wish that theyd stop. im being honest when i tell them that im tired

6/23/15 i just heard mom call to me, but shes inside and im outside so its a good excuse to not hear what she said. i do that a lot. i have better hearing than everybody thinks.

June '15 moms summer schedule has been made and already put into action.

June '15 Mom tries to make me feel better by offering to pay for the time i spend babysitting or being with my sister, but i dont want money. i mostly want someone to care enough about me that i dont end up babysitting every friday and saturday night. i know my family loves me and im so grateful to know that. but i wonder what it would feel like to have someone text me often to ask how i am, or if i want to go climb trees in the park.

9/15/15 ive been pretty depressed lately. ive been trying to hide it because i dont want to make mom and dad sad. they havent done anything to cause it and cant do anything to help it, so as long as it doesnt get too serious, i'll keep it to myself.

9/6/15 today was terrible. i wanted to tell mum and dad what happened, but i couldnt

9/21/15 i think mom said it best, "hes a douche."

10/13/15 Mom went upstairs crying, and i knew it was because of me.

10/13/15 moms love was present and it was strong

10/14/15 today a lady from family services called to ask mom some questions about what happened to me in july.

10/22/15 I fell asleep waiting for my date, and so mom had me chug a coke as he was walking to the door.

 love you mom. love, stella luna.

11 comments:

  1. Wow. This is important and this is beautiful.

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  2. "right now i am thingking abot when i am a mom and I'm reading this to my kid's. I love you who ever you are"
    This is all so good!

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  3. This is beautiful and important and I want to go climb trees with you in the park because you don't think we're too old. Thank youuuu.

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  4. "I think mom said it best,"hes a douche.""
    not sure what i did with the quotations there but...
    yessssss

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  5. I have very strong feelings about NOT putting someone in the top 5 two times in a row.

    But this post made me laugh and cry and I thought of my wife and I thought of my daughter and growing up is so hard.

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  6. your writing is powerful. keep it that way.

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  7. I fell asleep waiting for my date the other day. Also it feels like June '15 never seems to goes away really

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